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Two years ago I was able to starve myself for 12 days straight and I lost 20 pounds and got down to 115 pounds, but once I stopped the weight piled back on and now I am at a disgusting 150 pounds!  It disgusts me, I don't know how to deal with it, I have tried to exersize, eat healthier, and all I want to do is NOT eat.  I love the feeling of not being hungry, I feel.......sexy almost.  This is my first day of starting up again, and I need your help.  I can't do it alone, its so difficult.  I start school in 2 weeks and I need to lose at least 20 pounds to feel 1/2 desent about myself.  Overall I want to get down to 98 pounds, I am 5 foot 9 right now, and 16 years old.  I have been approached by modeling agencies looking for plus size models, but I don't want to do plus size.  I want to model, sort of, but only if I am thin.  I have a great face, I just need a great body, and everything will be perfect!  I know I will get more friends, more men will be interested in me, and I will be able to model for real.  I need this and all of my problems will be solved.  Help me.

xoxo
Lulu